Thursday, January 25, 2007
My baby girl is growing up so fast..and somedays i wish that I could make time stand still. As of lastnight she has figured out how to grasp the bottle and is on her way to wanting to hold it on her own..this makes me sad but happy at the same time. She is now clutching on to so many new toys, and finding out what noises they make. The joy in her face when she see's us in her view is just adorable to me, and to think that she is gonna be 5 months wrenches my heart as I love the " baby stage ". I cried the other night as I wished that i had of had the same loving , caring , and fun experience with Makayla like I have this time..but unfortunatly it didn't turn out that way..thanks to the lovely state of depression that hit me hard. I so wish that I could turn back time somedays and gather up all those days with her again..but for now i guess i will just enjoy watching her grow now. I really do hate depression for taking that from me..as that really breaks my heart now. But on the other hand Makayla has turned out to be such a beautiful girl and watching her grow will hopefully help mend my sore spot in my heart. I am just sad to see these kids grow up..didn't think it was gonna hit me this hard..watching them grow that is. Such an amazing experience but sad too, knowing that its over so soon. I took some cute pics of Kourt in her nakedness little way. Well now that I have spilled my guts to you all..I am off to tend to the kids and have a fun day..hopefully.